We’ve had a crazy, busy, wonderful weekend!

Recap:  I was blessed to shoot the wedding vow renewal ceremony for my coworker and friend Lenora’s sister.  Terence got Connor a remote control monster truck and I’ve managed not to fall over it yet.  We had a yummy dinner at my in-laws house with family.  Visited some dear friends of ours new baby today in the hospital.  Ate ourselves silly at a BBQ place.  Connor got a major haircut (maybe too short).  Window shopped at the mall, and didn’t spend any money 🙂  ONE LAST student loan payment and we will be debt free!   Thanks to my hubby, I moan and groan about him all the time, but I’m so thankful he’s good at spreadsheets.  Oh, and I joined the gym today.  Gulp.  Wish me luck on that one.  If you want to see some pictures of this weekend be sure to visit Instagram.

It’s been awhile since I’ve actually sat down to write.  I’ve been meaning to write since we heard a sermon at church a couple weeks ago.  The sermon was about facing our monsters.  In particular the monster of anxiety and worry.  If you know me, then you know that is something I struggle with on a daily basis.  It just blows my mind that Terence can hit the pillow and I am still awake an hour later.  My mind is running through all the things I did that day and all the things that need to be done tomorrow.  I just can’t seem to let go of everything.

I wish I was the kind of person that could just let things roll of my back and move on, but sometimes that’s just so hard.  That worry descends into hopelessness and helplessness and I get discouraged.

Worry produces obsessive control and leaves you feeling out of control about what lies ahead.  The Lord knows I forget a lot of things, I beat myself up about stuff more than anyone else could.  There are days that are harder than others, and I’m sure we all go through this.  God has blessed me with amazing family and friends, praying for myself and my family, and I’m beyond thankful.  God created community to carry you through hard times and lift you up!  To be a support system and love one another.  That’s why I love blogging so much, it’s such a great community and I’ve met so many awesome people.  The good has far outweighed the bad.

Sometimes I wonder why I am so lucky to live in a free country.  Why am I so lucky to have a beautiful family- when there are so many out there who cannot bear children.  Why am I so lucky to have a home/car/job-when there are people living paycheck to paycheck trying to make ends meet?  Why am I so lucky to have clean running water, clothes to wear, and a grocery store to run into when I need food- when so many have no clean water, no shelter, and food is scarce.  What makes me different than them?  You never fully know someone really….you never know the reasoning behind their circumstances in life.  How they got to where they are, why they behave the way they do, or the way they think.  Why should I care what people think of me?  They don’t know me KNOW me?  God knows me, and I am supposed to be a living example of Him.

I am a child of God and this is who He has chosen me to be.  I can only do the best I can.  At the end of the day knowing I tried and was kind and giving towards others.  Worry also draws people to irrational conclusions.  For example, if you are worried about flying on an airplane because you think it will crash.  Ahem…Really?  The chances of that happening are highly unlikely and irrational.  God will never leave you, nor forsake you.  He is near to the broken hearted.

No matter where you are in life it’s always going to be something!  When you are a baby everyone is watching you grow up to see what kind of person you’ll be.  When you go through the teenage years it’s all about grades, friendships, and getting into the right school.  During the college years it’s finding your path, choosing what form of education you want, dating, looking for the one.  When you find the one it’s all about getting married, when will you have kids & get a house.  When you do finally have kids then people start to ask if you are going to have another….and if you have another and it’s another BOY are you going to try again for a third?  See it’s always something!

It’s easy to get carried away with what the world says is okay.  The world says it’s okay to have a tan, carry a Louis Vuitton purse, wear skinny jeans, and apparently “twerking” is okay too.  Let’s think about that shall we….if I had a tan it would just be one big freckle and I paid all this money to change my skin tone for nothing, not to mention the risk of cancer.  Think of how many mouths you can feedwith the thousands of dollars you spent on ONE purse.  Skinny jeans ain’t my friend, I look like a busted can of biscuits sliced open sideways, but everyone else has them…duh….so they must look good!  I didn’t even know what “twerking” was until a few weeks ago, but it ain’t pretty folks.  It hasn’t done anyone favors.  So much for what the world says is cool….

While the future is uncertain, I know God is in control.  When you communicate what worries you to God it will bring about change in your heart.  God ALREADY has a plan!!!  Before you even knew it.  Meditate on what YOU KNOW is certain and forget about the worries of tomorrow.

Whew.  If you are still with me…thank you.  Thanks for caring, thanks for reading, and thanks for the years of community, love and support.  I guess that’s about all I have on my mind tonight.  I’m sure I’ll think of more when I lay down and hit the pillow.  Ha ha!

I’ll leave you with this:

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matt 6:34 NIV