We’ve had a lot going on lately. Some I’ve shared on the blog or Instagram. I’m lacking mojo and honestly just exhausted. There are some days I wish I could stay at home with Connor and have a normal routine, exercise, cook dinner, read books…without having to worry about time or money. I know God is in control of everything and He knows the desires of our hearts.
I recently changed jobs (same company). I’m working longer hours now. I love my job and wouldn’t change it for the world, but this week every day I’ve been dead dog tired? What gives? I’m trying to eat better and exercise weather permitting. Terence has a 2 hour commute every day, so he’s also tired and exhausted at the end of each day. I cook dinner, do laundry, and dishes…..after that I am wiped! I know this year is going to be full of changes and struggles. My mind is constantly reeling. Do you ever have a problem just shutting down your brain?
I don’t want to be that Mom that’s so tired at the end of the day that all I can muster is a frozen pizza in the oven and Connor is stuck in front of the TV the rest of the night just so we can relax. But I am sorry to admit that’s the way it’s been lately. We play soccer or read a book. But somehow I feel like that’s not enough and I’m only giving 75% of what I should be. Finding balance is hard and there is no magic key to happiness.
Do any of you struggle with these things? I know I’m going on and on about feeling guilty. How do you find happiness and contentment in the everyday when you wish things were different?
Our little #selfieaday moments and morning rides in the car is something I cherish. Connor actually asks to do the selfies. If I forget he reminds me 🙂 It’s become a memory and is special to him.
So, even if we just have our few special moments together each day it means more to me than anything in the world. I know I’m lacking a lot in this role of motherhood…but all of that said….it’s the best thing I’ve ever done in my life.